Feels like home

It's safe to say I've no need to visit Alton towers anytime soon, given how much of a roller coaster life is at the moment! There's been so many unexpected twists and turns these last few weeks, and it's left me feeling pretty detached and distant from home and normality. I often find comfort in knowing things are okay at home when I'm at hospital which hasn't been the case so far unfortunately, it's weird knowing that when I do get home things won't be quite the same now Breeze isn't with us and my health is up in the air and changing.

I'm also acutely aware that change also opens up for the opportunity for reconstruction and a fresh mindset. With this in mind, I'm growing even more eager to stick with the struggles and battles here in hospital so that I can get home as soon as my body (and doctors) allow. -I say home, I fully intend to make a detour en route home to visit Daisy the Dinosaur when I am discharged. I'm still going a little crazy whilst missing her, recently I've learnt that being with the animals and people you love can feel more like 'home' than four walls can sometimes.

It's been three weeks since I last saw any of my animals and I've felt so lost! After a few days of begging and dropping my bottom lip, mum agreed to bring 'Teddy' on the train for a visit to see me today. (Not to mention bathing him, exercising Daisy under my strict instructions and still managing to make it here for me- you're a superhero mum!💓)
It really is amazing how much a cuddle with your pets can brighten your day, just that connection and a cuddle with him was enough to lift my spirits and clear all my worries and stress for a few hours. It felt like 'home'- a feeling I'd lost since being here. ❤️

In terms of how long I have to stay here for, I'm still unsure of how long itll be as so far I've been in just over three weeks, but I do know that each day is a day nearer- and I'm much closer right now than when I first came in. I don't want to jump the gun or tempt fate- but I do feel somewhat stronger and think I look a little brighter- which is definitely a step in the right direction!
I'm also hugely thankful for all of the support we've had this past week from so many people (both on here via my page, privately or in person) it's meant the world to read so many supportive comments and messages that have helped me hugely through the past few days.

With so much change, there's one thing that will stay the same- I'll still be doing anything and everything I can to #findawaynotanexcuse whilst here and when I'm home. Hopefully I'll be able to share a very exiting and slightly last minute announcement in the next few days, very much based around my motto! -Stay tuned for an update very soon!